Of course his whole behavior changes and the tantrums are plentiful and I get stories of nap time fights and feeding fits. Hubby, my grandmother, and mother all say the same 'He misses Mommy' KILL ME! I try to get in enough time before he goes to bed and double up on the weekends but it's just not the same and I've been crashing on Saturdays. I hate that I've started resenting the job and not caring (added to a psycho and ungrateful attending to drive me crazy) as much, already.
Last week was pretty rough and the the workload was ridiculously crazy and the attending drove me up the wall and I was just so stressed out and irritated. I brought that frustration home and decided to just take a hot shower and de-stress before I snapped about why someone was waiting on ME to make dinner at 8:30, well Chunks must've sensed how mommy was feeling because he stayed at my side, not fussing, not whining, and even holding my hand while I made a cup of tea (too cute). When I tried to get in the shower he would not let go and so for the first time I took him in with me (kept my underclothes on, it was just too weird at first lol #prune). Under the shower, I bathed him and he held on and hugged me and within no time he was falling asleep in my arms.
It was just what I needed. It was the most peace I had seen in weeks and my little guy was there to bring that calm for me.AMAZING. I nestled in his little neck and he hugged my neck while he nodded off, I can't tell you just how greatful I was for just that time with him and those moments for me. That is my guy and I'm proud and amazed at how in tune with me he is *sometimes*.
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I love how in tune Moo can be with me now that she's older. It's like she can sense when Mommy is having a rough day.
Ah, poor you! Poor Chunks! I understand. When I had surgery and was away from Pookah for 48 hours, he had a complete personality change. And then, wouldn't leave my side for about a week.
Do you think you could talk to someone about your hours? Hope everything works out, I know you were excited about this job( I was excited for you!).
*BIG HUG*
Hang in there mama! Glad you found some calm time. I actually bathe with Sebastian every day. It's just easier for him to jump in the shower with me. He LOVES it. It's nice bonding time and practical too!
Hope things chill at work.
I hope that the job isn't stressing you out too much still, let me know if you ever need to mommy vent because I know how it feels to resent what you are doing because it is getting in the way of the mom you feel you want/need to be...It's amazing how much our babies can frustrate us with their tantrums and such, but be so in tune when they know mommy needs a pick me up...so sweet :-)
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