I've been running like MAD! for the past month. I told you guys about the new job and how I was really enjoying it and the work, well things kind of took a wrong turn and after losing 2 employees within 2 weeks of each other and basically training myself while getting all the work done I've been putting in 11-12 hour shifts EVERYDAY! Needless to say, I've been tired and basically missing from Chunks's days. I'd see him for about an hour before it's time for bath and bed then gone before he wakes up.
Of course his whole behavior changes and the tantrums are plentiful and I get stories of nap time fights and feeding fits. Hubby, my grandmother, and mother all say the same 'He misses Mommy' KILL ME! I try to get in enough time before he goes to bed and double up on the weekends but it's just not the same and I've been crashing on Saturdays. I hate that I've started resenting the job and not caring (added to a psycho and ungrateful attending to drive me crazy) as much, already.
Last week was pretty rough and the the workload was ridiculously crazy and the attending drove me up the wall and I was just so stressed out and irritated. I brought that frustration home and decided to just take a hot shower and de-stress before I snapped about why someone was waiting on ME to make dinner at 8:30, well Chunks must've sensed how mommy was feeling because he stayed at my side, not fussing, not whining, and even holding my hand while I made a cup of tea (too cute). When I tried to get in the shower he would not let go and so for the first time I took him in with me (kept my underclothes on, it was just too weird at first lol #prune). Under the shower, I bathed him and he held on and hugged me and within no time he was falling asleep in my arms.
It was just what I needed. It was the most peace I had seen in weeks and my little guy was there to bring that calm for me.AMAZING. I nestled in his little neck and he hugged my neck while he nodded off, I can't tell you just how greatful I was for just that time with him and those moments for me. That is my guy and I'm proud and amazed at how in tune with me he is *sometimes*.